I’M NOT GOING TO WRITE YOU A LOVE SONG

September 25, 2018

 

Inspired by "I’m not going to write you a love song" Sara Bareilles

 

I was the perfect (almost perfect) girlfriend

I was honest, caring and heard your every word

I was the person you could tell anything to and would understand

Until you became everything I thought you weren’t

A liar, a cheater and someone I couldn’t stand to look at

 

I’m not going to write you a love song today or tomorrow

I refuse to attempt to give you countless reasons to stay

When I’m the one that should be leaving

I drowned in words that I took solace in for the moment

Knowing they were filled will dramatized filled scenarios

 

I refuse to be the Yvette to your Jodi

 

I lie to you because I love you

I tell these other hoes the truth because I don’t care about their feelings

For once I’m allowing myself to close that door

All 452 photos of you smiling while I’m dying inside

All 14,342 texts shared of countless conversation blows in the wind

 

And for every minute spent allowing myself to write countless love songs

I choose not to write one for you today

I choose to write a love song for myself

With no periods to end the ever-loving serenade about how I love myself

 

I choose to become the person who forgave me instead of forgiving you

I forgave myself for the wasted moments of doubt

The weight I lost trying to keep what you were doing on my mind

The tiresome nights I let my eyes fill with worry

“Bloodshot tears stain my pillow case” are old songs that played in my head

 

I forgave me

 

My love song consists of me and only me

And when I ask her to write

She gives her all, pen, paper, and priceless amounts of time

Sis had it all along; she was hiding behind your ego

How could I ever allow myself to drift away from writing love songs about her?

 

I’m not going to write you a love song

I’m too busy writing my own

 

 

 

Alaya Dyson. Born and raised in Baltimore. Poet in the DMV area. Writer and dancer.

 

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